05.18.09

So much going on lately! When it rains, it pours, eh? This is good tho. I love this pace. I get stir crazy when I don't have a million things going on. I've met some very interesting people lately & am pushing myself out of my comfort zone. Always striving for progress. No time to sit still! Shows coming up, work to frame, new art to make, new friends to meet, adventurous moments to be in, and so on and so forth. I keep saying that I need a vacation, but at the same time I dont want the hassle of breaking up my routine since I am in a good flow. Thats pretty lame, I know. A vacation would be cleansing & give me a whole new perspective I imagine. But I am in a good mental state. I'm pretty darn good at keepin it real. I'm not one to fool myself or play games with people. Yes, I think I might have mastered the art of forgiving myself & moving on. So much time is wasted when you get "stuck". I think I was mentally stuck on a few issues all of which have just worked themselves out and vanished from my thought pattern. Time to move on to better & bigger things! I have no time to waste. No one knows whats best for me except me. I'm not into it when other people tell me what I should or should not be doing. Trust me, I know what I am doing. Sometimes its not always the "best" thing, but its what I feel like doing so I do it anyway because I feel like it. Like I could get out there an paint a bunch of landscapes that my heart isnt in just to sell them, but I dont want to. I pursue the things that make me feel passionate. But just as easily I tire of those things if I'm not getting what I want out of it anymore. Thats how it goes. Art projects started with so much passion, but sometimes these things go astray. Sometimes I just wake up & feel completely different about a project. I guess thats how the unfinished projects heap grows. Sometimes my feelings just change. Oh well. Thats prob why I have a tendency to work fast and act on impulse. You just never know with these things!

I have a lot of things to tend to this evening, but I am running on fumes today! Only 3 hours of sleep last night ;) Can I do it? Can I push on thru and be productive tonight? My guess is yes. I can do it! I can do anything! I can & I will, because I don't have time to waste. Life is just too short for that nonsense. :)